You know those moments where as you're so frustrated, stressed and helpless, that it feels like you're going to hyperventilate? Everyone has those moments right? Well I'm going through that right now. I even imagined myself blowing my brains out with a black 50 caliber handgun [very descriptive, I know]. What a messy suicide; I don't like it. Either way, I'm angry and upset, more pissed off than anything. Things keep happening one after another. I feel as though I'm at a breaking point. Everything just started hitting me right in the face. I don't know how to handle this. Whenever things like this would happen before, I'd just reach for my razor and let the blood flow, but I've been trying my best not to be that person anymore. I pray and yes, there is some release in that, but even though patients is a virtue, that's something I also pray for; at least more of, that is. So here I am sitting in a shameful rut, wondering what I can do to keep my sanity as things get worse and worse. I would love to go into detail, but there is so much that even I'd get confused.
That's it for my little rant. What do you do in this situation, if you've ever been in it?
That's it for my little rant. What do you do in this situation, if you've ever been in it?
